Day 24
I woke up at 1pm then got hooked up to Boys over Flower Korea drama. I started to wake up the others because we’ll make a last minute shopping for the holidays (we don’t have any food in the fridge). When we were already at the mall, my sister realized that we haven’t eaten anything; we were so busy watching the novella. I went to church for the Simbang Gabi.
I bought Wild Vines (wine) for the celebration and a bag of Lays. I received Christmas greetings from all of my friends.
Our neighbor surprisingly visited us. He’s a little drunk and sad. He said that our house is now lonely unlike before. And he asked, “Where is your boyfriend?”. And of course, I lied. I don’t want no more questions to be asked if I’ll say the truth.
Day 25
Again, I’ve spent the day with a marathon of Boys over Flower. Leslie and I went to Trinoma for a stroll. I was hoping that I would be able to find a cheap bag for everyday use. Sadly, for an unknown brand, it costs PHP 500, local branded bags price is almost the same.
I went to Angie’s place to copy movies, tv series, songs.
Movies:
- 27 Dresses
- A Moment to Remember
- Adventure Land
- American Beauty
- Closer
- Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs
- Crazy Beautiful
- Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
- Forrest Gump
- Ghosts of Girlfrends Past
- Hair Spray
- He’s not just that into you
- High school Musical 3
- Ice Age 2
- Interview with the Vampire
- Love of Siam
- Lucia Y EL Sexo
- Material Girl
- Meet Dave
- My Best friends Girl
- Perfume- the story of a murderer
- Serendipity
- Shaun of the dead
- The Butterfly effect
- The Hangover
- The House Bunny
- The Last American Virgin
- The Other Boleyn Girl
- The Prince of Egypt
- The Pursuit of Happyness
- Wicker Park
- Wuthering Heights
TV Series:
- Heroes (Season 3 and 4)
Songs:
- Boys like Girls
- The String Quartet (Breaking Benjamin, Incubus)
- The Fray
- The Ataris
Day 26
If you would like to let the day pass by quickly, you must remember two things: 1. Sleep almost half the day. 2 Watch a nice Tv Series. As for me, watching Boys over flowers is the key.
While watching the series, I remembered three years ago I was sad, I bought an ice cream and wrote about the Taiwanese drama/Japanese Manga, Mars. How I like to have someone like Rei and to feel protected like Kira. I wish that I would find someone like Rei. Now, it’s like déjà-vu, dreaming to meet a strong-willed man like Gu Jun Pyo and compassionate, Yoon Ji Hoo. They’re both protective towards the girl they like. Sometimes I would like to disappear in reality and let myself inside the series or a book. It’s a lot friendlier than reality.
The feeling of nothing wore out. I thought I’d be able to stay strong, but I can’t.
Every one of us treasures something or someone. Inevitable as it seems, we just put them in one place when we don’t make use of them. We’ll remember it or them when we needed it. That something or someone is waiting to be used again or remembered. Isn’t sad? What if one day it/they’ll just walk away because they grew tired of us? It’s very lonely waiting for nothing. You feel insignificant and abandoned.
Dec. 27
Then again I woke up late in the afternoon, watched the Boys Over Flowers, this time I finished it. My officemates asked me if I would like to go with them, I declined. My high school friends asked me to watch Avatar (IMAX), then again, I declined. I’m such a house person.
From over the list of movies, I watched, A Moment to Remember, a Korean movie. See my review. http://sheirene.wordpress.com/2009/12/28/a-moment-to-remember/
Forgiving is letting a small space of hatred in our hearts. I remembered Father Edwin’s advice to me. He said, remember the people who hurt you, and every time you’re hurt by the same person, forgive them. Should I start to forgive myself?
Dec. 28
Today was a little different. I thought I won’t be able to stand up because I don’t feel good, but I manage to go to the market. I went alone and I liked it. It’s like shifting your mind focus for a little while before going inside in the battle again.
I spent most of the afternoon on my bed.
My niece and I watched Perfume – The Story of a Murderer, a nice movie. It makes me want to buy a Ralph Lauren or Davidoff’s Coolwater (for Men, my favorite).
Dec. 29 – 2:15 am
Then we watched 2010. Honestly, I would like to cry. It’s very touching.
When I watched, A Moment to Remember alone, I cried but when someone accompanied me in watching 2010 which is a lot more worth crying for, I didn’t. Do you see the difference? I just realize it now. Hahaha.
While watching the movie I remembered, Kai. We both loved watching movies. We ate a lot inside the movie house. Sometimes I think we’re too noisy while watching with the ooohh’s and ahhhh’s when we were amazed or see the twist of the story. Kai always explain things while watching the movie. I think even if we had a movie marathon in our place or his place, it will be fun.
He’s really a good movie companion. I miss my movie buddy.
Dec 29
I woke up early, I haven’t sleep that well. My friends and I went to see a movie, Shake, Rattle and Roll 11.
Today is a sad day for me.
Dec 30.
We went to Grand Central to buy food for tomorrow. Again, I bought wine.
**Author’s Note: I ran out of words. Words are floating in thin air and I don’t give a damn to look at them. Emotions are powerful.**
