reborn

Today, I had the worst headache ever. It hurts so much that I throw up. 

I would like to have a new life to a new place. Singapore? Thailand? There I can forget everything, nobody knows me. I’ll have an apartment. I’m gonna live by myself. I’ll cook on my own. I’m gonna live. Before, I was afraid, but now I feel I can do it. Nobody wants me here, and someone would have a happy face on her face that I’m finally gone and far away.

I want to be resurrected. I want to feel alive again. 

I want to feel the speed… I want to drive cars in full speed.

I want to feel the danger…

Now, I’m not afraid of heights… I’m not afraid to fall…

I want to die… and reborn.

I hate in here, no one is waiting for me here, no one will save me.

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