Goodnight and Goodbye…

I did something that I was forbidden to do.. and the consequence for that is, I have to suffer more. I’m so fed up and tired with his conditions so…

I said harsh words to the person who’s very dear to me, my first guy bestfriend. And out of resentment, I made a decision.

I  tried to focus at work, even if my tears silently fall. And when I get home, I might drown with tears and can’t fight the courage to resurface.

Now that my comfort zone is gone, I don’t know what to do. I’m scared to be lonely again, and I can’t find any source of happiness now. I can’t find anyone to take his place. I can’t take back back what I’ve said, and I think my apology won’t reach him anymore.

I can’t deny that I’m happy and excited whenever I see his name on my cellphone. And in every little thing he does for me, even if it’s just a text message, I really, really appreciated it. And whenever I hear his voice, I can feel that he’s near. It’s all gone now…

Again, I don’t know what to expect in the morning.

Di ba yan naman ang gusto mo?!?

Oh?!? Baket ganyan ang mukha mo? tulala ka

Di ba sabi mo sa akin, yun ang gusto mo mangyari?

Makahanap siya ng trabaho, para maiba yung attention niya, hindi siya na bo-bobored sa bahay, ka-text ka buong araw at naglalaro ng PSP… pero ang tunay talagang intensyon mo e lumayo ang loob niya sa iyo, kasi mayroon na siyang trabaho. Kung tutuusin, wala na siyang panahon para sa iyo, alam mo kung baket?!? Monday to Saturday, 8:00 am – 5:00 pm, pag Sunday,TOTALLY WALA. Ngayon mo sa akin sabihin kung saan ka diyan SISINGIT?!? Wala ka talagang SPACE sa kanya from the very beginning.

At alam ko!, pakonti-konti kang hindi nagku-kwento sa kanya. Sa problema mo, sa masasayang bagay, sa malulungkot, katangahan atbp. Di ba sabi mo sa akin, sa kanya mo lang nasasabi ang lahat?Na gumagaan pakiramdam mo? Pero anu ginagawa mo? Inaangkin mo nanaman ang problema sa mundo, katulad ng dati..

Ngayon, nalulungkot ka, kasi pakiramdam mo, mayroon siyang kasama sa paglalakad ng requirements? Haller?!Hindi na bago yan, kaya nga sinabihan mo na ‘Wag na magtext’ kasi feel mo nag istorbo ka lang.At hindi ka nagreply sa last text nya.

Pro in the end, ikaw pa rin ang nasasaktan.AT IKAW,IKAW,IKAW.

I don’t blame you if you envy HIM…

Paki tell na lang sa iya,SORRY

Dahil mahal ko si kuya ambet at inaamin kong nadala ako ng aking emosyon, nadala ng galit dahil di ko inexpect n may kaltas ako ng 190 dahil di pa talaga ako nalate at hindi ko rin sinasadya n makalimutan mag check/time out s biometrics, kung sino man makabasa nito, paki tell n lng s kanya, SORRY. - Courtesy of Cheesemosa (Screenshot and translation)

Your Attitude Problem is my Silent Protest

Friday…January 30, 2009
Sheirene Cruz: late ka ng 8, half day-sheirene cruz
hannahgracegolbeque: ha?
hannahgracegolbeque: 8?
hannahgracegolbeque: anong 8?
Sheirene Cruz: january 8, 2009
Sheirene Cruz: last out mo is 12:52
hannahgracegolbeque: considered out ba yun na hndi ako nakapag out ng gabi?
hannahgracegolbeque: kasi kung tatanungin mo ang mga tao dito, never akong nalate
hannahgracegolbeque: i mean considered LATE ba yung hndi ako nakapag out?
Sheirene Cruz: e di UNDERTIME
hannahgracegolbeque: hndi lang ako nakapag OUT… late na agad?
Sheirene Cruz: ai,OPO
Sheirene Cruz: dpat nga pag wlang OUT ABSENT E
hannahgracegolbeque: ah ganun ba?! sorry ha, ngayon ko lang kasi nalaman na ganyan
pala.. cge next tym tatabi na ako sa biometrics
Sheirene Cruz: HALI KA TUMWAG KA
Sheirene Cruz: PARA KILALA MO KNG CNU KAUSAP MO
hannahgracegolbeque: tao lang po kami nakakalimot rin minsan
hannahgracegolbeque: cge hndi nako magreklamo.. 190 lang naman eh…
hannahgracegolbeque: ok na lang.
Sheirene Cruz: neng,kilala mo ba ako?
Sheirene Cruz: sana kilala mo ung senior mo ha
Sheirene Cruz: iniexplain ko sa u ng maasu e
hannahgracegolbeque: ok na nga po.. disregard na lang yung complain.. nakalimutan
lang po mag out.. once lang naman db yun, so ok na lang
Sheirene Cruz: neng,policy po un
Sheirene Cruz: awware din cla erma dyan
Sheirene Cruz: MANDATORY UN

Saturday,January 31,2009

Song ni POKWANG na dedicated ko ky SC na si KOREK,kala mo kung SINO
Sayo na yang 190 ko, baka dyan ka pa yumaman.

Hannah..Hannah..You’re really getting into my nerves.If you are really BRAVE, you’ll email me or add me at least to friendster so I’d be able to read your VIOLENT REACTION.Wow,this is a BRAVE ACT?!?(sarcastic)

I’m not a NOBODY here and I don’t act like as if I OWN this company.I’ve been working here since your 2nd year or 3rd year of college.So based from it,I am your SENIOR whether you like it or not. What  have you contributed to this company so far?!?

We are PROGRAMMERS.We both  know that we build software applications based from CLIENTS POLICY. Your PROTEST not only question my seniority but our company policy, as well. It’s not my fault that you’re not WELL-INFORMED up to now (your datehired: May 19, 2008 ) we PROGRAMMED HRMSv3i based from OUR COMPANY POLICY, you should ask Ms.Sheila Delvo about our RULES and REGULATIONS or to other senior programmers in Geoworx or to HRMS v4i programmers.

I am the programmer for HRMS v3i , but I’m not the Payroll Master. I am not responsible for correcting your DTR or informing your attendance.

I don’t need your PHP 190 and technically, our company. got your 190. You’re way too far from my salary, so don’t act so HIGH and MIGHTY. If it’s REALLY not a big deal to you, stop BLABBERING about your 190.00

In my four years of service, I’d never encounter a junior programmer with an attitude like yours. So I think it’s VERY CLEAR, WHO THE PROBLEM IS? And from what I’ve heard, you really got an attitude,an attitude that I don’t want to tolerate.

If you want to gain respect to your co-workers,you need to earn it.

And if you want to talk to me,be my GUEST. add my ym or friendster account: eneriehs00@yahoo.com

Nosebleed#2:It’s just heard to except

Amoy Makar: what the use of keeping three id
Bebe Gandanghari: nothing
Amoy Makar: is it like fro diffrent individual
Amoy Makar: any way its your
Amoy Makar: i am just joking
Bebe Gandanghari: its an old account
Bebe Gandanghari: i only used it to talk to you
Amoy Makar: do you want me to say come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn <—-*ghetto sya?!?*
Bebe Gandanghari: why are u talking to me that way?
Amoy Makar: dear did i ofend you
Amoy Makar: no its just heard to except
Amoy Makar: that you use this id recent ly only for me
Bebe Gandanghari: dear?
Bebe Gandanghari: u already forgot our endearment <—-*nakuha pang magtamo ng loko*
Bebe Gandanghari: well its ok
Amoy Makar: not really its just i am helpless
Amoy Makar: i dont wanna cheat some ones life and heart and mind and time and every thing
Amoy Makar: hun i cant efford to lose you. <—-*mahal ka daw nya*
Amoy Makar: you want me to answer you honestly you will appriciate that?
Amoy Makar: you will hate that
Bebe GandangHari: thought u’ll say something
Amoy Makar: wait na plz
Amoy Makar: i am in bangladesh room woth some sheet tolk
Bebe GandangHari: bahala ka
Bebe GandangHari: since when did u start accomodating conversation like that?
Amoy Makar: since…………………20 days
Bebe GandangHari: and why?
Amoy Makar: i felt alone bore and so and so thats why
Bebe GandangHari: u rather talk to them
Bebe GandangHari: than me?
Amoy Makar: wen i was quite
Bebe GandangHari: u rather give them your valuable time?
Amoy Makar: this ids the only time i am only online for friends
Amoy Makar : an dthe rest is bussiness
Bebe GandangHari: i don’t know if you’re just doing all these things for me to hate you
Amoy Makar: m no i wanna be your friends deear
Amoy Makar: not enemy
Bebe GandangHari: eh sabi mo may sasabihin ka
Bebe GandangHari: im waiting for it
Amoy Makar: galit ka <—-*aba,marunong nmn pala,sana nagtagalog na lng kayo*
Amoy Makar: you sounds like temperd
Bebe GandangHari: you’re not taking it seriously
Amoy Makar: this is very strange that you cool down very fast now a days
Amoy Makar: any way
Bebe GandangHari : what’s the problem ba?
Bebe GandangHari : i don’t know what’s going on to ur mind?
Amoy Makar : nothing
Amoy Makar : its just wanna be clear
Amoy Makar : beside sabiko i need 20 munites know
Amoy Makar : but you cant wait
Bebe GandangHari : 20 minutes for what?
Bebe GandangHari : would that change whatever you’ll say to me?
Amoy Makar : i said i am bussy with some one else ok
Amoy Makar : what you wann know
Bebe GandangHari : evrything
Amoy Makar : deicding what
Amoy Makar : nothing i have nothing to say
Bebe GandangHari : don’t play with my emotions <—-*bad! amoy!*
Amoy Makar : never mind
Amoy Makar : you will never understand me
Amoy Makar : this is th eprovlem of girls you know
Amoy Makar : wen they want they wanna buy it <—-*ano ba kasi pinabibili mo*
Amoy Makar : they dont wann leave it the way it want to be some time
Bebe GandangHari: SAY IT
Amoy Makar : dont exploud me ok <—-*tindi mo sen,PINASABOG MO SYA*
Amoy Makar : i dont wann abe rood specially with you cz you dont desserve it
Bebe GandangHari : are u done hurting me?
Amoy Makar : not yet
Amoy Makar : so dont try me more <—-*tama na kasi ang pag explode,bebe*
Bebe GandangHari : tell me if you fallen for other girl?
Amoy Makar : i dont give a sheet to love  <—-*spreadsheet cguro to noh?!?*
Amoy Makar : i dont have to
Amoy Makar : its not a race that i have to
Bebe GandangHari : then why are you breaking up with me?
Amoy Makar : besie i was tring to be quite cz i dont wann play with you cz the end is nothing in this kinda relation thats why i beleive better early then late that might cost you more
Bebe GandangHari : play with me? <—-*WTF?!?*
Bebe GandangHari : so that’s it
Bebe GandangHari : all this time
Amoy Makar : i didnt
Amoy Makar : i were in real
Amoy Makar : but the end wen i picturise i found that has to be stop
Amoy Makar : cz you dont desserve that kinda ends
Amoy Makar : thats it
Amoy Makar : beside you are very good friends for any one
Amoy Makar : none can efford that fortunatly i had
Bebe GandangHari : I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <—-*I’M TOO!!!*
Bebe GandangHari : I SHOULD NEVER SPEND TIME WITH YOU
Amoy Makar : well thats why i was quite
Amoy Makar : cz i dont wanna be like that
Amoy Makar : well its up to you
Amoy Makar: you are very good friends waht i found is very special one for any one waht i dont
desserve and efford thats why
Bebe GandangHari: I SWEAR IF OUR PATHS WILL CROSS AGAIN, I SWEAR YOU WON’T LIKE IT
<—-*at nagbanta na ang lola mo!*
Amoy Makar: i didnt get you  <—-*IM TOO*
Amoy Makar: there are so many type of love but cannt you understand i dont wana cheat you? <—-*masama kc ang magkopyahan.tsk.tsk*
Amoy Makar: dont you feel it what i feelt truly i told you
Amoy Makar: do you want me to recall
Amoy Makar: we were cahtr mate
Amoy Makar: then get friends
Amoy Makar: then in love
Amoy Makar: right
Amoy Makar: then i felt its cannt be cz i dont htink we will gonna be able to make it
Amoy Makar: so i decided to be friends even better besid ei cant meet you expectession very often